Echos Of Existence

 never know what somebody thinks. not important. do not take what they think personal. anything really. you never know what somebody is going through. well i will do my best i say. at least im real. not what you thought is it. all is for naught.

 Number nines are about letting go. self realization of one’s reality is detrimental to one pursuit of happiness. why often we allude ourselves through devices, mechanisms of discriminating despair from obliviousness.  one such devices ive used is art. drawing really.  I could say im a drawer. :| or I could not...second thoughts sometimes deserve to be first thoughts. time does not respect that....time does respect "its" language. we should observe that more...and distance....

 VOMMIT. --HE Cleaned up the crime scene, BEFORE calling 911 --reported I had GREEN hair. --uses alias of “Robert French”, a known rights leader in the area. T HIS IS MY LIFE -never had I dyed my hair a color. -why clean up crime scene -video of me parking car at red lion? (2005) ALL THIS IMPLIES THE GUY WAS A PREDATOR. Not to miss the fact that was shamed over “how bout I tie YOU up and have MY way with YOU.” Now fast forward to 2006, WSP. CO Staff claims I refuse an order. Put me into their new world order. Feed me drugs while “sleeping”(nightmarish scene)of coarse I wanted to get high, to escape wtf this even is. Reality is out of concordance. **** Eight hours, that night, of gut wrenching vomiting. A culmination of the pills, the blinding authority of “justice” and the nefarious means of the rotten and ill gotten. Their scope is really a mechanism for the greater evil, the ones drinking the Brandy and Scotch, leather wrapped oak, billiards in the distance ...

"Floaties" Good and evil, heaven and hell. It is difficult to imagine that one can experience these opposing states of existence within the same day—sometimes nearly in the same breath. I say “nearly” because it is almost as if the brain is conceptualizing an existence in which we are perpetually suspended in a single moment. In reality, energy is transference—a state of awareness of change itself.    Numerology, the I Ching, psychology, philosophy, and theology have all taught me ways to cope with and better understand the world around me. In conjunction with my own inner design, they bridge the gaps in areas that remain indescribable. For instance, as I go about my day, ever-changing vibes, thoughts, and attitudes wash through my vessel while my consciousness lingers on the edge between what feels normal and what feels strange. It is all vibes. It is all “he said, she said.” It is the media, the Epstein files, the bureaucracy surrounding so-called democracy and human righ...